Miles. Apart.

I swear I never felt like this before. I may have said the same before about jy, but this is so different. I was quite wrong before. This feels so good, yet makes me sad. Strange. I keep returning back to that night we kissed. I swear, I don't regret it at all. It felt so good and so right. A memory, a moment I would hold dear. My first true feeling. Never before have i felt such a strong feeling, indescribable.

I think about you every night before I fall asleep. Just thinking about you makes me sleep soundly. I just think back about the past, the times where i should have gone further but was afraid. It's so strange, that one can make you feel sad yet feel complete all at once. It sucks that you have to leave, and that unfortunate circumstances have led to such a complicated situation for me.

I think all i can do now is just see how things pan out. And react as the story unfolds. Someday? Someday.

I will always regret not trying harder, and giving up out of fear when you were actually reciprocating. That feeling that i had it, but didn't know. Makes this all the more bitter.

Regardless of that, i will always replay that moment. Never fails to get me out of whatever shitty mood i'm in, a bad day or whatever shit kicks me.

What a night.